June 18, 2013
Count Your Blessings…and then, keep counting and counting…
As much as I want my blog to be inspiring and motivating, I
also want it to be real and honest. I think I have balanced it well so far.
However, the longer I am here, the more that I see and experience and today I
have to be real and honest. It’s probably on the opposite end of inspiring and
motivating. Sharing on this blog has become therapy for me and today I need
some SERIOUS therapy…
Today was by far the hardest day here. It’s like my heart
was broken and then broken again, into little tiny pieces…
A little 2 year old
girl in my preschool class lost all control of her bladder today. She went
through 4 or 5 pairs of pants until we didn’t have anything else to give her.
Everytime she stood up, it came running down. So we wrapped a towel around her for the rest
of the day. We phoned her parents to come and take her to the clinic. When they
came about 5 hours later, the father was high and the mother had passed out on
the ground. She was so drunk that she couldn’t stand up. Sister Giovanna and
the other teachers think that the little’s girls bladder problem because of
some form of infection. The social worker knows her family’s history and shared
with me the filthy living conditions at her home (shack). They also suspect that she has been raped.
The heartbreaking part about it is that raping 2 and 3 year olds is a common
thing. Often enough the teenage boys (13 and 14) are the ones doing the
molesting. It sickening. I went into the office and cried after the stories
that the social worker told me about these preschool children.
Then later on in the day, I find out that a boy in 6th
grade was hit and killed by a truck on the highway this weekend while he was
begging for food. My heart broke again. I spent all day this past Friday with
the 6th grade class subbing for their teacher who was out for the
day. I sat with this boy in a reading group and listened to him read and
watched him smile as I told him what a wonderful reader he was. Now, he is no
longer with us. I thought that the reaction would be just as traumatic for the
other children and teachers as it was for me but that was not the case. The
teacher was obviously upset but it was her response that was so shocking to me.
She said, “This one really hurt.” This one?! Yes, students not returning for
school the next day because they are killed is not an uncommon thing. I could
tell this because the other children, his classmates, went about their day as
normal. I am sure his close friends and classmates were sad; I don’t doubt
that, the atmosphere just didn’t seem changed. It was just like another day for
them; just another part of their life: death.
I was given the details about the boy’s death but they are too
depressing to share. Let’s just say he wasn’t begging close to home and that he
wasn’t alone. It involved drugs, drug dealers, satanic devil worshiping groups,
sleeping under bridges and then add the begging for food part. All of those
elements were part of the 6th grade boys last night on earth.
All of the terrible things that I could have ever imagined
are nowhere near what actually goes on in the lives of these children. I
thought at first that I was just being judgmental about what I have witnessed
these past 18 days. However, it’s not a judgment. It is the absolute truth. And
I don’t judge these people by their actions and lifestyle. I am simply witnessing
a reality and trying my best to share love, a smile and a helping hand to
everyone I meet and those willing to except it.
After sharing all of my thoughts and reflecting on my day, I always find myself thinking about all of the countless blessing in my life. I have SO MUCH to be thankful for. Whatever my problems were at home seem to be absolutely nothing in comparison to the problems here. Thank you, God.
After sharing all of my thoughts and reflecting on my day, I always find myself thinking about all of the countless blessing in my life. I have SO MUCH to be thankful for. Whatever my problems were at home seem to be absolutely nothing in comparison to the problems here. Thank you, God.
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